it's soooo easy to do, just find stuff that's fun, and do it. i decided a long time ago that the whole process of school, work, family, death wasn't for me. not even in a way that i just want to mess around until i figure out what i want to do with my life, but that what i want to with my life, most people would call messing around. the haunted house and theatre, and comedy all seem stupid from the outside, but i kind of feel like this guy here. i guess this is what "do what you love and money will follow" means, or maybe more realistically, make money first so you can go mess around with what you like doing. i had a long talk with the haunted house owner about how some of the people he has to hire are totally lacking in common sense and are deadbeats, or had problems with their upbringings, and don't know any better to do any better, not knowing how little it really takes to be happy, healthy, and self sufficient.
-4 nights this week with < 5 hours of sleep
+woke up alarmless and made cookies
++theatre group liked them at early rehearsal
+++haunted house likes my costume so far
--super burnt out. being an introvert is unmanageable sometimes.